The Delicacy of the Soul

There really are a lot of things that occurred to me in these past few days. These things are all foreign to me but I found it so interesting to deal with. These doesn't happen to everyone and I'm so thankful that it did happen to me to meet new people, encounter dilemmas on relationships, falling out of goals, and so much more. All these things, I believe, made me a better person. And I hope that I can share this "better me" to all the people whom I touch their lives with.

Learning how to deal with the surprises of life is a tough process. It may seem very easy but wait until it knocks you off your feet! I almost lost my soul when everything seemed to be so complicated for me. I broke down, I cried, but at the end of the day, I still managed to paint a smile in my face. I know that everything has an end. What I learned is that you should savor each moment of your life because this might not happen again in your existence; just stay optimistic and everything good will follow!

PAGKAKATAON (Red Tiger 86)

Hindi ko mapigilang ikaw ay aking isipin,
Lagi kitang naalala…
Habang tumatagal ay patindi nang patindi,
Naglalagablab ang aking damdamin sa tuwing naiisip kita..
Mahal na nga kita
Ayaw mang aminin ng aking isip
Pero ito ang isinisigaw ng aking puso
Di ko na mapigilan ang aking nararamdaman
Bakit nga ba ikaw?


Naiinis akong isiping napakahina ko
Di ko maipakita sa’yo ang pag-ibig ng puso ko
Ano nga ba ang dapat kong gawin para din a ako mailto?
Para mahalin mo rin ako…


Lagi lang naman akong nadito para sa’yo,
Pero bakit tila hindi mo ako nakikita?
Nababagabag na ang buo kong pagkatao…
Dahil sa damdaming hindi ko lubos na maiparamdam sa’yo.

TENSIONS (Red Tiger 86)

My heart and my mind are fighting
And it all started when you came to my life
My heart starts beating abnormally
While my mind is protesting about this change


How could I suppose to live my life now?
I’m confused and I’m terrified
I really don’t know what to do
And I can’t help but to cry the pain out of me


My heart shouts so loud for you
My mind tells me to stop, but still I can’t
I know I’m getting hurt every time I think of you
But I’m scared to let this feeling go,
I’m afraid I would lose you,
Because I want you to stay,
Stay until my heart and mind will meet in favor of you!

ARRHYTHMIA (Red Tiger 86)

I have this feeling that I can’t explain
I feel so excited yet frantic when I talk to you
The feeling is weird and it makes me afraid
What’s this spell that I’m under?
I feel so happy but that same feeling terrifies me.


You really are a great surprise in my life
I didn’t expect you to knock on my door
And yet it’s strange that you conquered my heart
I know it’s kind of complicated
But the symptoms can clearly reason out why
I’m getting so attached to you
And it’s hard for me to escape you now


Did I find myself a great prison?
Or the promise of Eden is yet to be revealed?
I’m getting confused but I feel so blessed,
A thought of you really kills me little by little
But your presence in my life makes me feel so alive.


This complicated emotion really amazes me,
It brings two different feelings into one beautiful admiration,
My heart is tethered to yours now,
And I want to love you for the rest of my life.

To Someone

Thank you for bringing happiness to my life. Your troubled soul makes me realize that I also have a wonderful side to share with.

To Lose the Rhythm

I don't understand myself why I'm feeling this way
My heart is so happy whenever I talk to you
It seems like your voice is serenading my soul
I can't explain the happiness that you bring to my life

I don't sing well but my heart is singing so good
The beats are mesmerizing and it makes me fall
I know that the lyrics are kind of hard to define
Because this song can only be comprehended by the heart

I want to share this song to you
I want you to know how happy I am to have you
Someone who needs me and someone I can speak with
I want you to fell how special you are to me

You call me sick and I think I really am
But if this illness can dry your tears and make you smile
Then I want to be sick forever
And to sing you the song that your presence to my life is making

But then I'm afraid that I would lose the rhythm
I'm afraid that one day you'll have to go and leave me hanging for you
The happiness that you bring to my life is truly amazing
I want you to stay

Troubled Soul

Today, August 18, 2009, is the start of a new beginning for me. My mind is in deep trouble and my heart is in deep pain in the past few days. There really are a lot of things that are bothering me and I don't know where to start to renew myself. It's a good thing that I learned this outlet--blogging.

I'm not the type of person who usually seeks counsel from other people when I feel so down. I don't even bother my friends to open up with them. I'm kind of an introvert person because I don't want other people see my failures and my frustrations in life.

I know that I'm a strong person. I never encountered any difficulties that beat me. But everything has changed when I met this stranger who made me realize that I'm also weak; that I also need to cry because I just simply need to.